Mismanagement of Love

Most of us, including myself, have been guilt of “mismanagement of love”. With regard to matters of the heart, our once rigorous control is lost, our proverbial filters lose their ability to asses and ultimately judge, thus words and actions are compulsively implemented prior to consideration, much to our regret. Why are those of us, blessed with incredible business savvy, tactical diplomacy with co workers and clients, brilliant perspective with interpersonal relationships and methodical consideration with financial and professional decisions, lose our edge regarding “love” , that ever elusivity and keen sense that navigates our decisions and words? When it comes to romance, we are too enthusiastic, too available, our words sometimes trite and unconsidered, our actions immature, we sometimes compromise standards religiously adhered to in other areas of line. WE become as obvious as “drunk girl” on Saturday night live, staggering around with our proverbial neon billboard flashing our desire, advertising our loneliness every 2.5 seconds, baring our soul in our romantically misguided notion that we should do “anything for love”. Has this gotten us anywhere? When desperation comprises our internal GPS, it becomes time to mimic the practical brown bear, and hibernate for the winter or darkness, or at least hole up behind closed shutters until the time of repression of standards and low self esteem has passed. For the consequences resulting from bad decisions have far reaching and highly adverse implications, that can permanently wound the soul.
No one should be blamed for wearing this self deprecating cloak, for if one has experienced an unwilling period of solace, or an extended dry spell, the need for human contact, tenderness, intimacy and validation becomes a tangible, uncontrolled hunger requiring satisfaction. However, once the season of darkness has passed, and the sun appears overhead to provide its light and comfort, you may turn over and shudder in horror over the person lying beside you, chosen when your GPS was in the shop for repairs, and your loneliness overcame your good sense, i.e. you chose at the wrong time.
Take periodic stock over your internal compass, the content of your heart, become painfully self aware of how you are feeling about yourself, your life and your heart, that you may recognize your own ability or lack thereof to attract and choose the right person for yourself. These decisions must be crucially considered and thus implemented only when one is feeling internally strong and self confident, cognoscenti of self worth, invigorated by self love, with the filter clean and running strong. It is only the rest of your life you know. And most of us are only provided one out of jail free card.